摘要：I hope this article will put a very public light on a very private struggle, and, because of that, I reluctantly submitted it for publication. Why do it, then? Because, I hope that my unusual experience might encourage others with what they suspect might be a mental illness to seek the help they deserve. Because, if I can succumb to such a thing, then there are undoubtedly others who might find themselves in similar situations based upon experiences more traumatic than mine. Because, writing is one of the therapeutic weapons at my disposal to fight the battle still going on within my brain. Because, if this can, somehow, serve to express the fears of those more typically associated with such difficulties—the military, first responders, the police, victims of assault—then, perhaps, it can do some good beyond the very limited confines of my mind.
